Wednesday, January 5, 2011


So.... I'm trying not to bore everyone with my woes at the moment, so thought I'd pop in here and have a bit of a whinge. That way, I'm only boring those who WANT to be bored...

Actually, several of the wonderful staff at The Mater have told me that my current malaise is entirely natural! I keep trying to focus on the positive... i.e. the rapidly approaching end of treatment, but I seem to be having more down days than I have throughout this whole crapshoot. Apparently, that's normal! I HATE being normal.... always been one to try and buck the trend.... (Actually that's crap, I'm one of the most boring people I know!) I seem to be in tears 3 or 4 times a day, for no apparent reason, someone just said something nice to me on Twitter and my eyes are leaking all over the place. (Don't let that stop you saying something nice though).

Anywhooo, apart from the mental/emotional meltdown, I do have some physical issues I'm dealing with. The radiation has burnt my skin, let's just say in "the treatment area". No need to get too graphic, you all know where my cancer is. It's painful, it's uncomfortable, it means I've had to wear a bra 24 hours a day for the last few weeks .... it just FKN HURTS!!!! I see the Doc today after my treatment, and am hoping that he doesn't suggest taking time out to allow for some healing. I'd really rather just get it over with.